It’s not easy being a deep person. While most others are thinking about SUVs and granite countertops, I – K.M. Lessing – was wrestling with the hard questions about God and life: Why does God allow so much evil? Where is God? Does he even care? Looking around at the things I saw in the world, and the bad things that happened in my life, in the past I felt that God was one big fat jerk. And I wrote about it.

In the past, I also had a lot of hurts from men, and people in general – and if you’ve never been hurt by people then you’re not living on planet Earth – so I wrote openly about these things to encourage others who are in that same hurt boat that I was in. As a woman, I have been subjected to rampant objectification my entire life – in the media, TV, commercials, movies, books, billboards, blogs, ads, churches, pastors, religious leaders, etc – so I see no reason why I shouldn’t honestly share my experiences regarding these things. Why should women be silent?

After a lonnnnng period of thinking, searching, and going to nightclubs, churches, and everything in between, I did find some peace and resolution to my deep faith questions and some healing for my hurts; it partly came in 2016 when Jesus said to me: I was a jerk to you, and I’m going to make it up to you…

In Part 1 of her true story, K.M. Lessing openly reveals her imperfect life and candidly narrates her journey through the following: gothic club enchantment, her wish for love, marital misery, alcohol entanglement, spending the holidays alone, bad church experiences, loss of faith, disappointing people, the question of abortion, trying to find a boyfriend who isn’t into porn, nihilism, and exposing a crafty internet predator who turns out to be a married religious leader from Iran.

This book is a true story and contains authentic transcribed text messages, voicemails, and conversations.

Throughout her book, K.M. Lessing provides her perspective and critique on the myth of romantic relationships, toxic American “culture,” Hollywood, American pseudo-Christianity, the myth of counselors and why it’s better to become independent, questionable religious leaders, men’s accountability for their errant sexual behavior, and her first-hand experience with Islam.

In Part 2 of her true story, K.M. Lessing continues to tell all her secrets, including her conversion to Islam, her two Persian boyfriends who didn’t know about each other, her search for a moral oasis in America, her wish for romance which doesn’t fade into complacency, the forbidden Women’s Language, and her inner conflict about almost everything.

This book is a true story and contains authentic transcribed text messages, voicemails, conversations, and a few select pictures.

Throughout her book, K.M. Lessing provides her perspective and critique on the poisonous “culture” of Hollywood, her first-hand experience with Islam, the comfortable illusion of outward appearances, the myth of PhDs, the boringness of Western guys, the dating desert, the allure of beautiful lies from a Muslim troubadour, the painful failure of human monogamy, men’s accountability for their errant sexual behavior, and the Khomeinist ideology of Iran.

DON’T MISS IT: Conversation with Abazar Wahedy, the internet predator who preaches Islamic sermons in mosques all over the country. Story in this book. BUSTED!

Although worn out, K.M. Lessing continues to narrate Part 3 of her true story, including her deconversion from Islam, the depression that comes with being the reluctant mistress of a questionable religious leader from Iran, the regrettable day she lost her sexting virginity, the importance of becoming independent from people who want to control you, leaving alcohol behind and finally escaping The False Fairytale.

This book is a true story and contains authentic transcribed text messages, voicemails, conversations, and a few select pictures.

Throughout her book, K.M. Lessing provides her perspective and critique on painful relationships with Persian guys, the question of marriage, atheism, American TV-head zombies, the Khomeinists living in the United States and Iran, the myth of the holy man, and men’s accountability for their errant sexual behavior. Finally, K.M. asks this all-important question: who is the real Christ?

VIDEO about making the empowered decision to leave Islam, by K.M. Lessing

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Love her or hate her, K.M. Lessing is back. Still on Planet Nihilism, she continues to ponder this big floating headache called “Earth.” What does it matter if we keep all our secrets or tell all our stories to the world? Let’s skip the BS and talk about real life: love, money, fellatio, boobs, death, abortions, attorneys, Islam, Hollywood, God, Christ, and our curious hearts which are always seeking… what?

Throughout her book, K.M. Lessing gives her commentary and critique on greedy attorneys, escaping the psychological harem, the question of suicide, the Satanic ideology found in your living room, the myth of “royalty,” the difference between profit and greed, living independently from alcohol and porn-ridden guys, and the myth of the holy penis. K.M. provides 28 realistic ways to reduce hopelessness—including the secrets to personal, inner peace that Hollywood will never tell you.

This book is a true story.

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This book contains some erotica. K.M. Lessing continues her search for The True Fairytale and The True Prince. Along her unpredictable journey, she experiences many shipwrecks. She encounters Jesus Terrorists, shady psychopaths, Middle Eastern male chauvinist freakazoids, FBI agents, priests, dormant texting zombies, church ladies, and smart blondes. K.M. includes the story of The Afghan, another Muslim who she falls in love with, to her own chagrin.

As with her previous books, K.M. Lessing fearlessly discusses the topics that everyone else tries to avoid: emotional rape, Islam, porn, psychological blackmail, the vacuous McChurches littering America, letting go of anger at God, the blasphemy of female independence, the boringness of self-absorbed men, the perpetually-sexy TV girl, the pain of loving Middle Eastern guys, and The One Who Turns Hearts To Ice—Allah.

Most importantly, K.M. asks this question: Who is The Real Christ?

This book is a true story.

Christians are hurting many people all over the world. Evil committed by people of all races and religions makes it almost impossible to have faith in a benevolent God. The Bible seems confusing, contradictory and misogynistic. Yet even if we experience these blocks, it is not a solution to throw out the baby with the bathwater and say that God doesn’t exist.

But what if your ability to embrace God has been completely destroyed? Throughout our lives we experience many things that make us not want God. Is it possible to work through these things and find a happy ending?  In her true story, K.M. Lessing talks about her real-life journey working through her questions, doubts and conflicts about God. She openly reveals her bad church experiences, her painful experiences with religious men, and her years-long struggle to believe that God is good if there is so much evil and confusion in the world.

This book is for anyone who can’t embrace God, but wants to. It’s for anyone who’s had a bad experience with Christianity. It’s for anyone who struggles with doubt. The point of life is to work through our questions, doubts, and conflicts about God. God loves us and that’s why he wants us to ask questions and think carefully about what we believe, as we live daily in the midst of The Grand Debate.

Note: This book is not for the faint of heart.

VIDEO: K.M. Lessing talks about CERN, science, the fifth dimension of faith, The Nightmare Before Christmas, the original vegetarian (God), the Bible, and the True Fairytale…